Whoopsidaisy doo!

I haven't been so tired and felt so good all at the same time in quite awhile. After a week hiatus last week from working out due to illness, I hit this week hard with determination and spunk! I've worked out 4 out of the 5 day work week and only missed Wed because we ended up having to drive to Marysville to score a couple of bar stools for $20.

Ashley had to cancel our training session yesterday, but she had a spot open this morning and I took it. Of course without thinking that I was going to be out late because we were going to see the Phantom of the Opera. It was hard to get up, but I did it and it was good. Ashley is doing really well at easing me into full swing. I am quite taken back by how much muscle memory I really do have. Earlier in the week I did chest pumps with 15 pound dumbbells. I would have never thought I could do that!

So I'm on my way. It's going to be a long road, but I am determined. Now if I can only defeat Deb's chocolate fountain this weekend....

I NEED DISCIPLINE!!

Despite my many attempts to get myself motivated, I realized that it just wasn't happenin. It's been weighing on me heavily lately, I was concerned about my health and fearful that I would never lose the weight. Then a beautiful angel by the name of Ashley text messaged me yesterday out of the blue and told me she was going to be working at my downtown gym on Saturday and asked if I wanted to come in for a training session.

I was taken back at first since I haven't trained with her in 9 months, but deep down (ok, not so deep), I knew I had to do it. So I purchased $300 worth of sessions (only $41 a session!!) and made an appt. with Ash.

It was great. I needed it. I'm tired and I know I'll be sore tomorrow, but I feel such a heavy weight off my shoulders. I needed help and I have it again. I don't know what prompted her to text me, but I'm thankful as hell.

1 Year Anniversary!!

Matt and I decided to re-create our 'real' first date on our 1 year anniversary last night. We first went to Jai Thai on Broadway for dinner. It was delicious! I had the Garlic Galor and Matt had some weird seafood dish. We ended the meal with Jasmine tea and great conversation.

After dinner, we walked over to Dilletante to share a hot fudge sundae (the best we've ever had btw), but they were closed!! We couldn't believe it! It was disappointing, but we ended up walking to B&O Espresso and I had mousse and he had bread pudding. It was very good. Not as good as the sundae at Dilletante though. Doh!

After B&O we walked up to the Lincoln Reservoir where we had stood and embraced 1 year ago. If you haven't been there, it is quite a beautiful place to be. The water features there are phenomenal. We sat on the wall and watched the waterfall and waited for these punk kids to move from our 'spot.' They never did and I think Matt was getting impatient and led us closer to the waterfall. He then got on one knee, pulled out my ring and I think asked me to marry him. I'm not quite sure though because I lost my shit and just embraced him and started balling. We hugged and cried for a few minutes and told each other how much we love each other and finally we put the ring on! It is just beautiful! I can't stop looking at it. I fell in love with this ring a few weeks back. It's from 1890, a very romantic period in England. I felt a real connection to this ring. I could tell it was made from love and was taken care of because whomever had it loved the ring as much as whomever made it loved them.

It was just an amazing night! I love this man sooooo much. The sweetest thing he said that night was 'I want to raise a family with you.' Ahhhhh! But dang, now I have to have kids. ;) I feel so honored and blessed to share my life with Matt. He has made me the happiest and luckiest woman in the world. I'M ENGAGED!! Holy shite! I didn't think it would ever happen!!!

Kick-it Like a Polaroid Picture

I thought I knew what kick-boxing was since I've done it in a million different workouts, but I didn't know kick-boxing until Saturday morning. I signed up with the Modern Martial Arts Academy and had my first semi-private session on Saturday. The instructor went over all of the moves I need to know for the classes and let me tell ya...it was hard!

It was the first time I've done kick-boxing bare foot. I'm not sure how I feel about that. And we had to wear hand wraps and real boxing gloves. It was a completely new experience for me. He made me go through each move a million times to make sure I have the right technique.

As we were finishing, girls for his class started coming in and every single one of them was skinny. I started thinking what did I get myself into, but I know I can do it!

I can't wait to do it again. I hope I continue to keep up with these classes. Yayyy me!!

Trouble at the Storm Front

I am so angry! So, so, so, so angry!! I have worked so hard in my field and I just continue to get brutalized. I am sick of project managers making assumptions about me and my work. Have the balls to come to me and clear it up!

I just want to throw my business cards at her freakin' head! Why do I keep running into these cold women in this field? I swear they forget what it's like to be a young engineer. How the hell am I suppose to learn if you won't teach me?

I want to quit, but I know that's not going to do me or anyone else any good. I will continue to fight through this hardship. Even if I just want to curl up in a ball and cry.

I looked up to her. I wanted to learn from her, why did she quit on me? I deserve better than that. I worked hard for her.

Crazy Times

This week has been very eventful and it's only Wednesday! My best friend had her baby yesterday. It was a planned C-section so I knew it was coming, but I had no idea the emotion I would have behind it. I received her last email before giving birth early yesterday and I teared up. I was sad for losing the friendship I've known all these years; yet, excited for a new chapter.

As soon as I got a call from Jeremy giving me an update, all those emotions went away and I was very excited. I didn't think I was actually going to meet the little tyke yesterday, but Matt and I ended up going to visit after work. I have to say Mikayla is a beautiful baby. She's sooooo cute. I never thought I'd see the day where Debbie Deany Weany would have a child. But she did and I'm proud of her.

So yeah, I sacrificed my workout yesterday to meet my best friend's baby. And I'd do it again in a heart beat! It was wonderful!

Oops I...

...over did it again.

Well, once again I totally over did it at the gym today. I got so sick that I couldn't get ready afterwards so Matt and I could go out on the town. Instead we drove around while I laid back until I felt well enough to eat and stand up.

This sickness has got to stop! I don't normally over do it as much as I did today, but I always feel somewhat sick afterwards. I am really under the idealism that you don't have to push yourself that much to get results. But I was trained for months by personal trainers to work this hard.

So Matt and I made a new rule today: no grimacing. If you are grimacing while lifting weights, you are working too hard.

I know part of the reason I over did it today is because I haven't worked out at all this week and I was trying to make up for it. I haven't been feeling well the last couple of weeks. I've really allowed my emotional stress get the best of me. But I've been really even on my diet and that's great.

Here are the positive things I've done this week:

-Drank only one soda (I've been substituting with green tea or jasmine green tea, which is my new favorite tea)
-Making sure I eat a lot of fruit during the day
-Didn't eat any delicious sweets at our company picnic
-Didn't get a free small popcorn at the movies

My goals next week are to workout 4 times and loose 2 pounds.