Fight La Resistance

I fought and won a battle this morning. Matt wanted to buy us breakfast and so we went through Jack in the Box's drive thru. I didn't see any healthy items so I didn't get anything and just came into work and ate my oatmeal and banana for breakfast. I was sooooo proud of myself.

I've been struggling so much lately trying to get back on track. It's been so frustrating. I had a great talk with my dad about it yesterday and he had some great points. I had something wonderful come into my life that I could loose. And when I get scared, I head back into old habits. So, I faced the fear of losing Matt yesterday. I can't let that fear stop me from reaching my personal weight loss goal.

We also discussed how I resist the unknown. I don't know the skinny world. I've been heavy all my life. It's scary. I don't know how to beat that part of it. I know I want and need to lose the weight, but it's scary. It's hard. All I can do is be aware of it and deal with it until I overcome it.

For now, I will continue to fight la resistance to reach my goals. I feel so much better, inside and out when I workout on a regular basis and eat right. I didn't workout today because I am major sore from my workout yesterday. But I will get at least 5 days in this week and the following weeks. I gave myself a goal yesterday to fit into my skinny jeans by January. So, here we go!!

New Regiment

The last few months I have been very inconsistent with my weightloss. Between falling in love, getting sick for like a month, vacation in London that resulted in a week of exhausting jet lag and surgery, it has just been a tough battle for me. But in that craziness, I have changed a few things in my diet that I am very excited about.

I completely changed over to soy milk and really enjoy it. I've never felt comfortable drinking milk and recently have been aware of homogeonized milk's health risks, that include heart disease and cancer. I've also changed over to organic fruits, vegetables and eggs. I think when Trader Joe's opens in Ballard, I will make a change to eat organic meat as well.

The past couple of weeks, Matt and I have been making a conscious effort to eat better. We've been grocery shopping for the week on the weekend and planning out our meals. It's been really nice. We kind of got lost in the whole whirlwind of a new couple and going out to eat all the time. It's been refreshing to cook at home. I like treating going out to eat as a treat.

There's still some demons I'm fighting right now with my weightloss, but I feel like I am getting to a point again where it'll be my main focus again. I've been training with my friend Rebekah, which has been a blessing in disguise for both of us. I can afford training sessions easier and Rebekah has been working out like a mad woman. I'm proud of her. It's funny 'cause she keeps saying what an inspiration I am to her, but lately she's been an inspiration to me.

Got get ready for the gymies! Have a great day!

It's Over!

I had to do a scary thing today, but I did it and it was all for my health. I had learned over a year ago that I had contracted the HPV virus. A sexually transmitted virus carried by men and women that can eventually cause cervical cancer. For the past year and a half, I've had to have a papsmear every four months to determine if my body was going to fight the virus on it's own. Unfortunately, that wasn't the case, so I had to take the next step. To rid the cervix of infected cells, my doctor had to perform a LEEP procedure.

The LEEP procedure involves burning the cells with an electic loop. They numb the cervix before starting the procedure. It wasn't half as painful as I thought it was going to be. I thought the colposcopy to test if I had HPV was worst than this. I have to get papsmears every four months for the next two years to monitor the effectiveness of the procedure. I have a check-up appt. in 3 weeks that will determine if they burned off all infected cells.

I feel it's important to share this with as many women as I can. Awareness is the key to happy, healthy lives.

Run Forrest, Run!

I think I almost ran my legs off this morning. I did 20 or so minutes on the treadmill before Ashley came and got me (oh yeah, Ashley is baaaacccckkk!!) and I was already running and I went to stop it and she told me to keep going 'cause that's what she has me doing today. I kind of wished I hadn't done the treadmill beforehand. She had me doing a circuit where I ran for 2 minutes at speed 4.5. At first she had me on 6 and I was looking at her like she was a crazy person. I would have been like Road Runner on that speed. Then we did lat pulls using a band, then 2 minutes of running, then biceps with band, 2 minutes of running, lat presses with band, 2 minutes of running and continued that until our time was up. I was pooped, but somehow mustered to do 10 minutes worth of abs afterwards. I am still walking slowly from it. Whew!

I am on this organic fruit/soy milk/frozen yogurt smoothie kick. It's freakin' delicious! I stopped drinking milk a long time ago because of all the health problems it causes, but I still need milk to have some of my favorite foods. I finally ventured to the organic soy world and it's not so bad. I am going to try and keep nothing but organic fruits and veggies in my diet.

And I'm also reconfiguring my diet. I'm going to start with a smoothie and then eat my protein after my workout. I just get too hungry after working out and am sick of having to eat a blueberry bar every hour. It gets annoying!! So we'll see how this goes.

It's good to be back!!

Kick Baby, Kick!

Boy, I'm telling you. I hadn't done kick-boxing in two weeks and I surely felt it this morning. I was tired 10 minutes into the class, but I stayed strong and fought through until the end. She had us do a ton of kicks today and a lot of push-ups. Oh and of course, after my plankalicious workout yesterday, she made us do one-minute of planks. I cheated and was on my knees half way through it. My arms are tired people! Don't judge me! ;)

After class, I went into the gym and did some more ab work. I've been getting back into Pilates. I was trying to do Pilates once a week, but I just got busy with everything else that I lost touch with it. For the past two weeks, I've been incorporating it into my ab work and it feels good. I forget sometimes how much it works your core and how stronger you get from that type of exercise. I don't have time to do a complete Pilates workout with everything else, but I'm definitely going to make sure I do Pilates ab work at least twice a week. I think it's important.

Ok kids, I have to get up at 4:30 tomorrow morning to make it to a 6am spinning class! Wish me luck!! 'Cause I need it! :)

Holy Planks Batman!!

Shirley and I were just talking about planks yesterday, how strange that my workout would be centered around planks this morning. I do have to say that spinning class has inspired me. I did 20 minutes on the up-right bike this morning, a machine I tend to avoid because of the ass-hurtin' issues. I had my heartrate up over 170 for a big portion of it, it felt good!

So, Ash had me do a ciruit of shoulder/plank exercises today. It involved shoulder presses with 12 pounders, L-raises with 10 pounders and elbow lifts with 12 pounders. I think I am ready to go to 15 pounds though. In between arm exercises, I had to do one minute planks on the bose ball. Not just normal planks, but side planks! Side planks! One minute each side!! Holy moly mother of Moses! It was insane, I thought my arm was going to fall off.

It was a great workout. I won't get to work with Ash again for 2 and half weeks, this makes me so sad. I will miss her while she's on vacation. Woe is me. But I will make her proud while she's gone! Tomorrow is kick-boxing and Friday is spinning class. Wahoo!

I Can't Walk!!

I am sooooooooo sore. Soooooo sore, I can barely get up. I did my first spinning class on Saturday and it was for an entire hour! I can't believe that my first spinning class was for A FULL HOUR!! I got through it just fine though, I was so proud. The only thing that really made it uncomfortable was the seat. Why do they have to make them so hard? I don't understand. You don't have to feel like your ass is being burnt off to get a good workout in people. I just don't get it.

I am still so touched that Ashley kept her schedule clean to see me through the class. She knew I needed her there for her support and it just meant so much to me. She even told me today how proud she was of me and how impressed she was with my enthusiasm throughout the class. Ahhhh, tear.

But seriously, I think she's trying to kill me. She had me do the stairclimber for four 2-minute intervals with squats holding a 40 pound bar and butt clinches with the same bar. I don't know if I'll be able to walk tomorrow. It should be entertaining no matter what. Right now, I'm avoiding stairs at all costs!

But as they say: no pain, no gain. And amen, do I believe it!! So between running like a madwoman on the treadmill this morning to doing the stairclimber, which used to kill me, it was a very successful day. I see my endurance improving quite marvelously.

Push hard, stay strong and remember that your mind will go out on you before your body.