How am I going to lose the weight?

Silly people, Weight Watchers is for kids!

I was telling a friend the other day about my goal to become a nutritionist/trainer and focus on obese kids, but I wanted to reach my weight loss goal before I really got into it and she asks 'How are you going to lose the weight, Weight Watchers?' I thought it was really funny. And it really makes you realize how skinny people don't have a clue.

Not that Weight Watchers doesn't have benefits for some, it's just not how you go about losing a large amount of weight and keeping it off. Not to mention, I am on a journey to gain knowledge on what foods are good for me and include those in my diet. I'm not the kind of person to just eat whatever, but make sure I don't go over 'points.' It's not my gig and if I told my trainer I was going on Weight Watchers, she'd laugh me right out of the gym!

I guess the comment also kind of pissed me off. I mean, I've lost almost a 100 pounds to date and I know how to lose weight, I just haven't dropped that much since I've really known her. But I also kind of think that it made me realize how far I could be right now if I would have stayed focused. I forgive myself for the weight gain I had during my abusive relationship with Chuck, but I know I could be a lot farther now than I am.

It is a disappointment, but you can't let it get you down. All you can do is keep going. I have had such a new focus since the New Year and I feel like my old self again! My personal trainer even told me the other day that a lot of her clients have been commenting on how hard I work at the gym. I definitely don't waste my time at the gym. If I don't leave soaking with sweat, I didn't work hard enough. It felt good to hear that.

A Whole New Light

I don't know if it's because the new year is amongst us, but I have approached a whole new energy in me. I actually did kind of make a New Year's resolution; even though, I don't really believe in them, to stay more focused on my personal goals. The biggest of course is my weight loss, others being starting my new careers and working harder while at work.

I made Matt work out with me on Sunday and we're going to do it again tomorrow and on the weekend. We went to the grocery store together and got tons of healthy food for the week. And I have been going to the gym everyday before work. I finally feel like my old focused self again. It took awhile, but I stayed focused and didn't let what I saw as my failure hold me down. I'm excited to see what the next few months bring. And I hope I'm a few pounds and inches lighter!

Yayyy for healthiness!!