Pushing Through

I was carrying a dirty secret last week. I had started to make myself throw up after allowing myself to overeat during late day meals. I wasn't talking about it because I was embarassed and ashamed, but I had an incredibly wonderful friend confront me about it. It was exactly what I needed. I can't thank her enough for caring enough and having the balls enough to do that. I then began to open up about it and used my support system to start paving the way to overcoming it. I have asked for some personal time with my personal trainer this weekend to discuss it with her. This is a big step for me, I have never disclosed this struggle I've had for the past few months with her at all. But I know she will guide me to right support system and help me overcome it. I guess it's something I should have done awhile ago.

It's quite a viscious cycle. You feel out of control and you actually get to a point where you justify it. This week, I've just been taking small steps to get back on track. I haven't overeaten in 3 days and I've worked out Mon and Wed. I overslept yesterday or I would have been at my step and flex class. I feel good, not 100% yet, but things are on the right path.

I got to spend a wonderful evening with my boyfriend last night. It's kind of weird to say that. And tonight, I get to spend with my brother and am way excited. We're going to dinner and the to the Fall Out Boy concert at the Tacoma Dome. It should be fun. I am more excited to spend time with Mitch than the concert. :) Life is good. I have the best friends in the world and they have helped me get through this rough patch. Thank you!!