I started this week off with a bang. Last week was not good for me. I let my emotions get the best of me and ended up only working out twice. Not only that, but while away at the ocean this weekend, I allowed myself to eat anything. Yes, it was the best burger I've had in years probably, yes, it was the best hot fundge sundae I've had in a really long time, but did I have to go to the complete extreme of things? My stomach was seriously unhappy with me. I did ok last night and took Mitch to Quizno's for dinner. It felt good to have something decent in my stomach. This week is going to be much different.
My personal trainer opened up to me this morning and it really meant a lot to me. I really take pride in being someone that people feel comfortable speaking to. But I do know there are times when I open my mouth about things I shouldn't to others. I did that to Debbie last week and I wasn't proud of myself for doing so and really did an injustice to her. I've been working hard lately at not gossiping, but sometimes I fail. It's a really hard habit to break.
But from my conversations with Ashley this morning, I really reinstated how proud of myself I should be for standing up for who I am and what I want out of life. I struggled this weekend with the whole 'last boy' incident, but I truly feel I made the right decision. Maybe it was so hard to let it go because I liked him and I haven't felt that connection with anyone in a long time. But I saw the warning signs and I established that I wanted and deserved better than what he was offering me. I've come a long way since Chuck. And as much as I hate saying that name, I learned valuable life lessons from that situation.
It was kind of a rough weekend, but I see nothing but amazing things coming my way. Lonliness has really creeked my way recently. But I know that if I stay strong, I will get everything I want. I bought myself Pike Place flowers this morning. And tonight I will take to myself. It's going to be a good week. :)
2 comments:
I dont think you should feel guilty about the hamburger and sundae you had..sometimes its good to reward yourself otherwise life tends to suck. once in a while is perfectly acceptable and wont ruin anything youve accomplished so far. savor the moments and dont beat yourself up over it..
I'm sorry your splurge made your tummy upset. That's never good. :( You're having some tough, life changing experiences. I'm always impressed at your desire and commitment to be better in so many aspects of your life. I agree with Jeri; don't beat yourself up over the little things.
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