Fight La Resistance

I fought and won a battle this morning. Matt wanted to buy us breakfast and so we went through Jack in the Box's drive thru. I didn't see any healthy items so I didn't get anything and just came into work and ate my oatmeal and banana for breakfast. I was sooooo proud of myself.

I've been struggling so much lately trying to get back on track. It's been so frustrating. I had a great talk with my dad about it yesterday and he had some great points. I had something wonderful come into my life that I could loose. And when I get scared, I head back into old habits. So, I faced the fear of losing Matt yesterday. I can't let that fear stop me from reaching my personal weight loss goal.

We also discussed how I resist the unknown. I don't know the skinny world. I've been heavy all my life. It's scary. I don't know how to beat that part of it. I know I want and need to lose the weight, but it's scary. It's hard. All I can do is be aware of it and deal with it until I overcome it.

For now, I will continue to fight la resistance to reach my goals. I feel so much better, inside and out when I workout on a regular basis and eat right. I didn't workout today because I am major sore from my workout yesterday. But I will get at least 5 days in this week and the following weeks. I gave myself a goal yesterday to fit into my skinny jeans by January. So, here we go!!